Please note! This post has content related to eating disorders, food, and weight. So, you may know that a lot of shit went sideways for me in 2017. The summer in particular...well. Among all the big upsets happening in my life, I started to put together the pieces on some little things. Things that added up to make the most sense out of a troubling pattern that I'd observed for several years. 2017 was the year I slowly realized I have an eating disorder. What kind? I don't know! Some good general information on ED's can be found here . Whether or not I fit any of the criteria for a diagnosable eating disorder, I definitely have disordered eating and a weird relationship with food. Maybe it's more of a phobia than an eating disorder -- I don't know. I do know that I hoard food, have an irrational fear of food not being there or of losing food, sometimes eat too much either for no reason or because of a fear that I won't be able to later, and ...
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